Alone.

I expected it to be different. They tell you not to have expectations, but is that really realistic? Most expectations I didn't even know I had. I guess the biggest thing is that I expected everyone to understand that he and I belong to each other. But they don't.
And I still have to fight. I still have to ask him to fight. And he does not feel my pain, because I do belong to him, and there is no question about that. But he still belongs to other people, which leaves me desperately alone. Alone in a place where I don't know anyone. Alone in a place where I don't fit. Alone in a place where he does not belong to me.