Uglier

My toes are uglier without you
and my knees.

I've never felt more beautiful
than when you looked at me.

And now that you refuse to look,
each piece of me is uglier.

Disfigured to my own eyes.
I was beautiful because you believed me to be.

Lost You Both

Today 
After we walked away,
I wanted to call you. 
And say,

I finally met up with him,
But it was awkward
And tense

And he didn't interact with me
Like he wanted me there.

And you would have laughed
At my awkward stories
And how I felt so wrong

But I can't call you
About you.
My person.
No longer mine.

So instead I will sit on the train
Alone
And cry.

Having lost a lover,
And a friend
All at once.